Late Updates

Before showing the photos, I would like to say that I've been EXTREMELY busy these days. Assignments never stop piling up, and I can hardly manage my time to do them.  Well, my blog was not updated for a very long time certainly because of it and now I'm going to post all all the pictures that I haven't posted since the last photo and little stories about the captions. Sorry for posting it late though :|

 

  

It was really tiring when I walk back and forth at my first month entering the college especially when I have to carry those heavy art materials and media to my place which is quite far away. But I guess I'll just have to get used to it. :\

 Recently I felt very new and not familiar to my surroundings and I realized that I still had a very long way to go to achieve the reward of being a responsible young adult, and I'm still raw in living independently recalling that I'm a very clumsy and forgetful person (back when I was in high school). HopefullyI'll change those bad habits here. 

 

After attending class for almost more than a month now, I began to think that my future is my decision and that's when I decided to plan what I'm gonna do later after the studies are over. There are so many ways and paths that I can choose. I just need time fto igure what's best for me and 9my family later on. It's time to think about it and I think it's no harm to be prepared for what's coming :)

My mind was very concentrated on one thought and that is the unfinished projects. Not because I was lazy to do them, but I was really clueless and afraid of doing something wrong. I was really pressured, It feels like giving up :(

 

 Don't know suddenly being alone all the time became a slight problem for me. It's kinda sad though I always need to do things all by myself. It's like everything that I want to have depends on my efforts and struggles. I tend to get stressed easily recently. :(

 

That day, I was a little relieved from those assignments which was almost finished. I can finally took a temporary break but it wouldn't be long till other assignments come again. :|

There's been some ideas in my head but somehow I'm just don't know how interpret them well in my works. I guess I still have a lot to learn expressing ideas before I reveal  or kill the interesting part of it.

 

Felt all drained out of energy for a while due to the continuous assignments. It was very odd actually, I have never been this tired and beat. Having not enough sleep was really not good. I think I need a full-month break. :|

I've been daydreamin' a lot these days, I've got nothing to say about it I don't know what I was thinking of, probably just slight emotion through my mind.

I wish I could just skip my busy days and start a vacation with friends or family soon. I felt like collapsing doing the non stop homework. I miss my family and my friends , I wish I could go back to my hometown for just 1 week. .*sigh*

Still expecting the holiday to come soon and hopefully I could get great grades for my first college studies. I did  the very best out of me and I wish I can get the best grades I could get. :)

Yesterday I went to the art science museum at MBS with my classmates for the CCS class project, I find the museum very interesting and worth a visit. I thank my college for paying me to go there because it seemed rather expensive to have the access to go and observe the exhibition there. Thanks Lasalle! :D

 

Felt being left out  and not prominent in any activities recently, going passive and a bit off. Don't know what's wrong with me, there's so many conflicts inside my head and I think I'm going to be like this for several days, Not Good :(

Enjoy!

I've been really stressed and pressured by the assignments and all activities I had recently. I guess I've forgotten how fun and exciting it is to do all those things. Maybe it's because I hate doing so much work hurriedly. I wish I could survive through all this tough challenge, at least pass the foundation.

Overloading

It has been a "killing" week now. Lotsa lotsa assignments and projects and researches to do and I can't even do my projects at my place because of the space lacking and me not having a regular studying table and sitting chair. Can barely do some bigger projects. I can't wait to move later in October!

Relax and Panic

The three previous weeks, I went to the beaches in Sentosa Resort World for two times and I also went to watch movies with my friends. I have no idea how I was so relaxed while my assignments keep on piling up everyday I enter the classes. Lately I've been getting not enough sleep.  Feeling so unrelieved :(

One Little Grumbling

Got a drawing class yesterday and it was only the first day entering a college class and there are lots of homework already now. Not only the assignments which has piled up, but also did the art instruments that I need to carry everyday from now on. *sigh* can't believe it, I thought it was much easier than this and I was like, "Finally! I get to learn what I'm really into", so excited and never think I would complain about it. I guess learning other regular faculties like marketing or hospitality is so much more efficient and easier than creative industries. However, I will not regret taking art as my future reference cause it's always and it will always going to be what I've always wanted to do :)

Feeling Lowered...

Lately, I've been really emotional with everything that I see these days, hanging out with friends, watching fighting and happy couples, and judging strangers. I realized there are so many "social steps" that I have to walk and run. I used to have positive thinking about all this and I always question, "Why am I single? Why am I single? Do I look really super ugly?? THAT BAD?? " and I always answer "It's not because you're too ugly to have a relationship, it's not because of outer beauty, it's because you're looking for a right partner who really understands you and isn't afraid of having commitment with you (seriously). and also because patience always rewards". Yeah.. I used to have that kind of thinking ,but now I don't think I could think that way anymore. I realized that physical looks are always the main factor and will always be the main factor in having relationship. Whenever a guy or a man said that one of the reasons why he dates a girl is because of that girl's inner beauty, FOR THE GIRLS WHO READ, you should know, THAT IS BULLSHIT. There's no man or guy who fall for you without looking at your face or your body. Believe me, it's how they take your "wind" away and then when they get bored with you, they'll just throw away your "wind" like a useless meaningless trash. It's not just merely about being subjective, IT'S THE TRUTH. From now on, I feel so hard to  trust anyone (especially guys), Change your mind about me? Fine then,  besides I'm just confessing and I think I did the right thing. No regrets :)