Enjoy!

I've been really stressed and pressured by the assignments and all activities I had recently. I guess I've forgotten how fun and exciting it is to do all those things. Maybe it's because I hate doing so much work hurriedly. I wish I could survive through all this tough challenge, at least pass the foundation.

Overloading

It has been a "killing" week now. Lotsa lotsa assignments and projects and researches to do and I can't even do my projects at my place because of the space lacking and me not having a regular studying table and sitting chair. Can barely do some bigger projects. I can't wait to move later in October!

Relax and Panic

The three previous weeks, I went to the beaches in Sentosa Resort World for two times and I also went to watch movies with my friends. I have no idea how I was so relaxed while my assignments keep on piling up everyday I enter the classes. Lately I've been getting not enough sleep.  Feeling so unrelieved :(

One Little Grumbling

Got a drawing class yesterday and it was only the first day entering a college class and there are lots of homework already now. Not only the assignments which has piled up, but also did the art instruments that I need to carry everyday from now on. *sigh* can't believe it, I thought it was much easier than this and I was like, "Finally! I get to learn what I'm really into", so excited and never think I would complain about it. I guess learning other regular faculties like marketing or hospitality is so much more efficient and easier than creative industries. However, I will not regret taking art as my future reference cause it's always and it will always going to be what I've always wanted to do :)

Feeling Lowered...

Lately, I've been really emotional with everything that I see these days, hanging out with friends, watching fighting and happy couples, and judging strangers. I realized there are so many "social steps" that I have to walk and run. I used to have positive thinking about all this and I always question, "Why am I single? Why am I single? Do I look really super ugly?? THAT BAD?? " and I always answer "It's not because you're too ugly to have a relationship, it's not because of outer beauty, it's because you're looking for a right partner who really understands you and isn't afraid of having commitment with you (seriously). and also because patience always rewards". Yeah.. I used to have that kind of thinking ,but now I don't think I could think that way anymore. I realized that physical looks are always the main factor and will always be the main factor in having relationship. Whenever a guy or a man said that one of the reasons why he dates a girl is because of that girl's inner beauty, FOR THE GIRLS WHO READ, you should know, THAT IS BULLSHIT. There's no man or guy who fall for you without looking at your face or your body. Believe me, it's how they take your "wind" away and then when they get bored with you, they'll just throw away your "wind" like a useless meaningless trash. It's not just merely about being subjective, IT'S THE TRUTH. From now on, I feel so hard to  trust anyone (especially guys), Change your mind about me? Fine then,  besides I'm just confessing and I think I did the right thing. No regrets :)

Taking Break

Today was a bit loose than the yesterdays and it's time to unwind and relax. I doubt that I'll be able to have some breaks starting from next week because next week will be a very scary week for foundation students :(

Adapting

Oh my God, it has only been 3 days college and I'm going crazy because of my timetable, learning portal, and the art materials that I have yet to search and buy! I can't believe I would spend so much for materials only, the tutors sure speak like well-off people -.-". I never thought I will be this tired and exhausted but hopefully I'll manage to get used to it :)

Freedom and Boundary

 

 Been attending college for  3 days, and I made some good friendly friends. I felt so free at large however I also felt so busy with the college activities. No kidding about what my seniors told me yesterday, now I know what it feels like to be a college student. I even doubt I can keep on updating my blog. WILL BE SUPER BUSY SOON :(