I always have this thought of myself being the very best among others is the most important thing I must do. Being better than anyone is what I've always wanted to do too, yet competition is always hard and difficult and "my best" is always not good enough. I guess I just don't like to feel what it feels like to be worse than the others especially in something that I'm really good at. I swear that someday, I am going to be a wanted and a very successful person in the future for my family and myself. Maybe it sounds a little selfish, but I guess since it's confession,
being honest is a good and natural thing to do :)
