Utter Disapppointment

Hard to believe that this year's Christmas sucks big time. If I keep up like this on every Christmas, I might kill myself. Nothing in particular that makes me happy this year, nothing but disappointment.

HAPPY

I got nothing to say, I'm just slightly HAPPY in a sense :)

Negativity

Lately I've been feeling very insecure and so low about myself. I just don't know what is going on inside me and it's just so hard to get rid of this negativity. Sometimes I just wish someone or anyone would spare some time to be a good listener where I can reveal all these thoughts and share about them. I guess I'm just disappointed with myself right now, it feels so unnecessarily pathetic.

Close to year-end

 This month has been a very tough time for me. When mom, dad and my sis came to Singapore, I got sick, REALLY SICK. I even passed out for the first time in my life and I felt so pathetic and helpless. Luckily I got my sisters helped me out and they believed I was sick from the food poison which I don't know where it came from. It was terrible and miserable, it took me 5 days to be fully recovered. Then I got scolded so many times by my mom for so many reasons. Anyway, I hope the other days due to the Christmas and New Year, will be better than the beginning of this month.