Freedom and Boundary

 

 Been attending college for  3 days, and I made some good friendly friends. I felt so free at large however I also felt so busy with the college activities. No kidding about what my seniors told me yesterday, now I know what it feels like to be a college student. I even doubt I can keep on updating my blog. WILL BE SUPER BUSY SOON :(

New Beginning

So tomorrow is my first time attending class in college, feel excited and excitable. I'm gonna face numerous of hard competitors and different style-teaching teachers. Knowing that the assignments and homework for my foundation studies will be mountains of burdens from some of my seniors, I feel so uneasy and anxious now. But let's just wait and see whether it's true or not. :|

RELIEF RELEASE

Been in Singapore for almost a week now and feel so relieved after obtaining my student pass and student card. Thank God I've finally settled all the documents problem and college registration and now I feel so free and happy. I can't wait to start my college studies and start to change my old shabby self to a new greater self. :)

Homesicking

It has been 4 days living in Singapore, and I am still worried about my documents which will be used in making the student pass here. Thanks to my agent and his crews for screwing my data and now I'm GD anxious. But despite all that, I miss dad, friends (although some of them can't show up yesterday) and home now .I really miss playing piano too although I can't wait to start my college life here. It's just happy and sad at the same time. I just pray and keep on praying that everything will go well and I hope I'll be home by December or sooner to get this homesick over. Miss y'all so much guys <3

The Remains that I Play

This morning, I played every song that I can play on my piano. It was sort of farewell to my passion in music, I'm sad that I'm not gonna be able to play again whenever I want there. It's just sad.. I can't believe I'm crying while typing this, I just never thought it would be this hard to separate from what I have and what I can do in Medan, especially music and I got this piano as my music mate. Whenever my friends or family are busy with themselves or whenever I was alone, I always play to cheer myself up and I think that's what making me okay of being so lonely. But starting from tomorrow, I have to leave it here, just thinking about it, makes me burst into tears... I hope I will be able to handle all the obstacles of my social life there so that I won't feel empty and lonely. I know it's awkward to say thanks to an inanimate .. but I still wanted to thank you for having been with me until now and someday I'll tell our story to other people about what you and me had been through...

Sincere Thanks for the Alphabet Cookies :D

  

Today I went out with my best friend XinXin ( a.k.a Sally Cintya William) to meet my drawing mentor, Johnson. We talked a lot about silly things at his place for about 2 hours. He also taught us something about motivation and he said that no matter how good we are, we may not feel great about ourselves. We must keep on accepting the greater challenges eventhough we are good enough. It was a nice and thoughtful talk actually. After having some conversations with him, we left and we went to HELIOUS, the cake and bread shop. I had no idea why she wanted to go there, probably she ordered a cake for her family's birthday I thought. But it turned out I was wrong, the real thing is she ordered a box of alphabet cookies for me! It was a  farewell gift from her and I was so happy and thrilled to have the surprise! maybe It's been a while since I don't have any surprises  like this. When I got home I immediately took a picture of it and post it here. If  u read this , I just wanna say lots of thanks and I hope our friendship last foreverandeverandverandever. ME LOVE U MUCH XIN! THANKS A LOT BABE! :D

:'(

It's only one day away due to my permanent departure to Singapore, and I felt so messed up. There has been a lot of problems with my documents that I handed to my agent and I've got to tend to it immediately. Eventhough I'm so ready to face a new life there and I always wondered what would it be like, there's still a little part of me still wants to stay. I'm also sad that I'm going to leave my friends and some of my families here, I'm not that ready and I think I'm gonna cry soon. I kept on cheering and telling myself to take the bulls by the horns. But.. it's just hard when you think about who and what you'll leave. :(