Brief Break

I spend my new year's eve at the mountains and it was four-day and three-night vacation. Actually I was not very pleased with this trip and I felt like I was just wasting time. The first day of 2012, I was still bored till I met this amazing sunset with somehow pinkish blue and purplish white color blending and I was impressed. It's six days before I leave my hometown including the vacation days. Time flies and here I am preparing to fly back to Singapore, packing and spending  the rest of my time hanging out with my friends here. The thing that I'm going to miss is my one and only piano, which is more than an instrument to me, it's my silent best pal :)

Utter Disapppointment

Hard to believe that this year's Christmas sucks big time. If I keep up like this on every Christmas, I might kill myself. Nothing in particular that makes me happy this year, nothing but disappointment.

HAPPY

I got nothing to say, I'm just slightly HAPPY in a sense :)

Negativity

Lately I've been feeling very insecure and so low about myself. I just don't know what is going on inside me and it's just so hard to get rid of this negativity. Sometimes I just wish someone or anyone would spare some time to be a good listener where I can reveal all these thoughts and share about them. I guess I'm just disappointed with myself right now, it feels so unnecessarily pathetic.

Close to year-end

 This month has been a very tough time for me. When mom, dad and my sis came to Singapore, I got sick, REALLY SICK. I even passed out for the first time in my life and I felt so pathetic and helpless. Luckily I got my sisters helped me out and they believed I was sick from the food poison which I don't know where it came from. It was terrible and miserable, it took me 5 days to be fully recovered. Then I got scolded so many times by my mom for so many reasons. Anyway, I hope the other days due to the Christmas and New Year, will be better than the beginning of this month.

Christmas is OnTheWay :)

Christmas is coming and everybody seemed to be very prepared for New Year. It's good to have the merrily decorated Christmas Trees and Decors around the city and if only there's snow, It would have been incredibly beautiful. It's very unpleasant that I kept witnessing rain instead of the snow every morning which gives me gloomy days everyday I wake up and then I was like, "Christmas should be happy and merry, not gloomy, lazy, and sad like the non-stop rain". Anyway, I just wish everything will be fine as we embark to the brand new period where we can start our brand new resolutions and new "selves". I'm looking forward to see new things and new people too :)

Shining

I always have this thought of myself being the very best among others is the most important thing I must do. Being better than anyone is what I've always wanted to do too, yet competition is always hard and difficult and "my best" is always not good enough. I guess I just don't like to feel what it feels like to be worse than the others especially in something that I'm really good at. I swear that someday, I am going to be a wanted and a very successful person in the future for my family and myself. Maybe it sounds a little selfish, but I guess since it's confession, being honest is a good and natural thing to do :)