The Bloom

Lately I have been very moody and unhappy for certain things , especially last week where I had a lot of breakdowns and disappointment; some with tears and some without. I started to hate myself again for being such a baby and get offended so easily. This is where all of my negativity had taken control of me AGAIN, but , thank God there's "he", who understands, who comforts and calms me down (although he's still away from the city and all I could receive were texts and phone calls). I'm really sorry that I've complained so much and being not thankful for what I have. Then I felt the positivity has bring me to the side of being happy and free from self-insulting and low self-esteem.

Then I had a very extremely great whole day with him yesterday,  since he's back from his vacation. And I'm really very thankful for all of his superb and wonderful gifts. I could tell that he has put a lot of considerations and concerns of what to give me, as to why I reckoned: He bought me films when he knew I'm in need of them, then he bought me rose bouquet which I'm currently fond of , and he also gave me a very beautiful dress and I'm not sure why, but I'm just guessing that he just wanted me to have more confidence as a woman and to prevent me from saying myself ugly over and over again like I used to. He has been a such wonderful gentleman and I feel so fortunate to have him as my appleheart. It's just less than 10 days before I'll go back to Singapore to continue college and that's when distance will part us for nearly a year but I hope that he'll be able to visit me there before he went back to his country where he's studying. But if not, then for the future I just hope that distance won't ruin our trust and our endearment to one another and stay faithful and committed to each other. Missing him certainly will be daily for me and it probably will be lonelier, but I'm sure it will worth the patience and the wait. 

Hope nothing will be in vain for both of us.

TLC <3

July - July

This month has been a very amazing time for me and I had a lot of new things going on in my life right now. Meeting new people and having new moments, resembling with old friends and enjoying the fun of social life, learning lots of new piano songs, are all I've done most of the time here in Medan. There aren't burdens in my mind, just happy thoughts and innocent expectations; makes me not willing to go back to Singapore. It's roughly two more weeks before I shall go back and continue the college life again. I guess the holiday has ended and it is time to let go all-the-time fun and be ready for the brand new semester. Anyways, I'm thankful for the time that I had here and thanks to all of my family and friends for the fun, can't wait to have a long summer holiday again, what a fun July! :D.

Journey to the Lower West

Just got back from my 10-day vacation in Australia, and I feel quite satisfied because I captured lots of good pictures along the holiday. I explored so many new and beautiful places in this continent but it was hell cold everyday which I find disturbing because I'm not used to cold weather. However I just kept going to have fun :). We also went to see lots of cute creatures like sheep, buffaloes, horses (somehow not as the same as in Indonesia), koalas and kangaroos. I enjoy watching these cute creatures living their lives in the wild and how human preserve them from the wild selfish hunters. Personally I don't like living in this country because everything is just overpriced and it is just not convenient because they mostly charge people of everything; any kind of small service, internet, water, and many more. But I have to admit that there are more things to see in this western land rather than in Asia. Well I had fun and I guess it's good to have seen and experienced many things in these 10 days.

Holiday Getaway

Holiday vacation is on the track and can't wait to go outside Asia. It's one week to go and the countdown begins now. :D. It's been a while since I didn't have a long vacation with my family and I hope it's gonna be fun :)

Present Tense

I've been thinking about my past and my future at the same time and all I can think about for both is still unclear and blurry. I can't even recall some of my past and I can't predict anything to happen to myself in the next coming years either. My mind is currently focusing on what is happening now and I would like to just enjoy what I have right now, and be grateful for what I have achieved and received from my recent activities. How I wish I could infinite the time and remain like what I am now forever.

Regenerated

Lately I felt like I'm no longer my old self and I began to learn a lot of things lately. I find it good to have realized that I changed and tried to be a better person than I was. With full expectation, I wish for more good changes to happen to myself and for more passion to be a young artist later on. Thanks to my family and friends who has helped shaping a better self of me and someday I'm certain that I will be able to literally return favors to all of you. :)

Outside the World

Recently I like imagining some impossible visions inside my head. It's like almost not likely that I can illustrate something so surreal in my mind as if I was dreaming all the way.